The Blog Goblin

Time for...a cool change

2008-01-10T17:42:00.000-07:00

I thought when I was in Las Vegas in 2004 that I'd experienced heat. I hadn't. Today, there is a TOTAL fire ban across the great state of Victoria (Tocumwal is actually in New South Wales, but it as close to the Victoria border as damn is to swearing). Temperatures will vary in the area from high 30s to mid-40s Celsius. Here in Tocumwal (pronounced TOE-kum-wol), the mercury should top off at around 42C. That's bad enough; however, these 'extreme' temps (the locals say that anything over 38 or 39 is really oppressive) are accompanied by a really wretched hot northwest wind. It's almost sickening. Fortunately, we're in for a 'cool change,' this afternoon -- though the full effect won't likely be felt until overnight. With a cool change, winds shift from the northwest to the south and are markedly cool. These winds will drive temperatures down by several degrees within a few hours. In fact, here's what Wikipedia has to say about the cool change phenomenon:

A Cool Change is a term used in south eastern Australia for the arrival of a Cold Front in the afternoon or evening after a day of high summertime temperatures.
The arrival of the front often produces falls in temperature in the order of 10C to 15C and sometimes thunderstorm activity.

We had a few evenings last week with a cool change and the effect is positively gorgeous. We're not likely to see much if any rain here...because of course we're in drought, but it sure would be nice to settle the dust.

For me, the cool change has lots of metaphorical meaning. Really, it represents a complete turnaround. The movement from something stifling to something freeing and refreshing. Do you remember the Little River Band from the late 1970s? They were an Australian group that had a number of hits in North America, among them Happy Anniversary, Reminiscing and Cool Change. The chorus from Cool Change goes like this (sing along if you know it):

Time for a cool change...I know that it's time for a cool change.
Now that my life is so prearranged I know that it's time for a cool change

Now that my life is so prearranged. I know it's time for a cool change.

The Land Down Unda

2008-01-06T20:27:00.000-07:00

Greetings and Happy New Year from Australia

I arrived here on New Year's Day after having travelled first class from Edmonton. Let me tell you, first class is the way to go. It was weird being on the receiving end of the resentful/envious glances from the people travelling coach. In first class, they give you something to drink right when you sit down, as you're waiting for the plane to load. Usually, the choices are water, juice or wine/champagne. Because I was so sick with a cold, I usually chose juice. You are fed to death! The long trans-Pacific leg from Los Angeles featured an extensive menu of entree and dessert choices as well as a wine list. Of course, everything is gratis. And one has the choice of having your meal in several courses over the evening or at once so you can sleep. We were also given a little kit of supplies that included a sleep mask, earplugs, toothpaste and brush, socks, etc. The seats were like large lazy boys that reclined to almost flat, so it was actually possible to have a decent sleep. I woke a couple of time in the night only to have a flight attendant there immediately to offer me something to drink. I'd had a Bailey's as a 'nightcap' that helped my cough and also helped me sleep. I wish I'd been feeling better to more fully enjoy the service and pampering! They even put a priority on your luggage so that it comes out of the carousel first!

On the Los Angeles leg, I was fortunate enough to sit beside a woman named Renie from White Plains, New York. I imagine her to be in her late 60s and she was a delight! We were very comfortable comrades almost immediately. She was off to see her daughter in Hobart, Tasmania and had travelled business class several times before. So, she was able to tell me what all the buttons and levers on my chair were for. By the time we'd touched down in Melbourne, we had exchanged contact information and pledged to stay in touch...and we have!

Everything ground to a halt when we arrived in Sydney. We had to get off the plane, then go through security again to get on the one hour Melbourne bound flight. We were all set and ready to go when the pilot said there was a 'minor' mechanical problem that had to be seen too. Wouldn't be but a few minutes. Ultimately, that few minutes turned into a four hours as they eventually deplaned us, bought us lunch and searched for a different plane to take us to Melbourne. So close and yet so far! I had no way of contacting my sister and brother-in-law, who were stuck waiting in Tullamarine airport in Melbourne. For Renie, it meant missing her connection to Hobart and there are precious few flights there each day. Luckily, she was able to get a flight on another airline only an hour after her original flight.

When we finally got off the ground, we got a spectacular view of the Sydney Opera House and Sydney Harbour. I was struck by the difference in the countryside between Sydney area and Melbourne. Everything was so lush and green in Sydney, but as we flew in to Melbourne, the land looked absolutely scorched. Brown hardly begins to describe it, but it certainly drove home the reality of the drought in this part of Australia. Some parts of Australia, particularly along the northeast coast up into Queensland have had more rain than usual, while poor Tocumwal (where my sister lives) and the farming areas around there have been scorching for years now under the Australian sun. As a farmer in this part of the country, my brother-in-law has to buy an allotment of water with which he would irrigate his crops. The allotments have been cut back so severely by the NSW government that there is essentially no water to buy. Really, he can only have enough water for running the house, livestock and a bit for the garden. My sister and brother-in-law bought a new farm just over a year from now, which features a remarkable garden with more than 100 varieties of roses as well as a host of other flowing plants and shrubs. They've been hard pressed to keep the roses alive. Many other sections of the garden have had to succumbed to the heat. As for crops and livestock, there really is no point without water. It's grim to say the least. I think it's left my brother-in-law feeling very much as loose ends and wondering what he, at 50 years old, will do with the remaining working years of his life.

Not surprisingly, it has been very hot here in Tocumwal. It was around 40C when I got here on New Year's day and has ranged from a 'moderate' 33C to day to a possible 45C on Thursday. According to the residents of this small Australian town on the mighty Murray River, any temp over 40 is considered fairly oppressive. People would do what they had to early in the morning and retreat indoors until it cooled in the evening. It's a dry heat that reminds me of Las Vega -- like a kiln. It doesn't bother me too much to be honest because there is no humidity. Plus, my sister's in ground pool is about 20 steps from the back door ; )

I have managed to keep up my running so far. I hadn't had a run for over a week prior to my arrival because I'd been so sick. I've been getting up at around 7 am to beat the heat (though it's already about 25 by that time) and running north down the back track of my brother-in-law's land, across a small metal bridge that crosses a shallow channel that is the farm's water source, then east up another dirt track that runs parallel to the farm. Today I managed to get a 40 minute run in, which pleases me. The huge gum trees, which molt their bark in great brown and tan shards, arch over the track and provide a fair bit of shade. Once I'm running back up the paddock towards the house, however, it is bare, open field and I really feel the heat then. Sometimes, the dogs -- Loki, Lucy and Wally -- come along. It's wonderful to see dogs with so much room to run, so many smells to smell and things to pee on. Makes me realize how important walks are to my dogs and how much I miss them.

The kids, of course, have all grown dramatically since I was here last. Anna, the youngest, is 13 and is an observer. Still waters run deep with that girl. She is initially quite quiet, but I think now it's because she susses things out before she engages. Not a bad plan! She is very motivated on her own to get things done around the house and seems to keep a mental inventory of every object in the house. They say if Anna doesn't know where it is, it's lost. My nephew Michael (15) is over 6 feet tall now and struggling to cast off the last vestiges of boyhood. It's not easily done without awkwardness and pain (for everyone!). He reminds me a bit of the molting gum trees! Jenn, (20) the second eldest, is very even tempered, funny and comfortable in her own skin. She is on summer break from university where she is taking a nursing degree with a major in midwifery. She will start her third year in February. She's very anxious now about finding shared accommodations close to the university as her two roommates from last year have bailed on her without giving her much notice. Jenn is going out with a VERY nice boy named Ryan, who goes by the nickname Rizza (which sounds like "Rizzer" is Australian). He is finished his apprenticeship as an electrician as of today!! He is also a fairly accomplished football player who plays for an AFL farm team in Geelong, which is near Melbourne. Lisa, (22) the eldest, lives in Melbourne with her boyfriend of three years, Dave. Although she had a challenging adolescence, Lisa has found her way in life and is doing very well as a Accounts clerk with a company in the city. She will start taking some finance evening courses in the fall. That leaves Natalie (17) who is entering Grade 12 this fall (February). She still doesn't know what she wants to do when she finishes school, but I'm sure she'll work it out. She has a wry sense of humour and seems more bohemian in lots of ways than her siblings. She enjoys music, eating things that are bad for her, and hanging out with her "bestie" Nicole. It is so weird to have her driving me around!!

That's the state of the union in Tocumwal, New South Wales, Australia for January 7, 2008. I'll upload pictures at a later date as doing so from my sister's computer at home is a virtual impossibility.

Well, there's Christmas '07

2007-12-26T19:37:00.000-07:00

I got a cold on Christmas Eve. In some ways, it was a mercy...freeing me the my usual refugee status I experience during the holidays. Lots of invitations, but belonging no where. I did go to my "Mom's" on Christmas Eve, and we had a nice evening as always. I was too under the weather to do anything Christmas Day (which I've generally always disliked anyway). However, today I had wanted to get out a bit as I've been a virtual shut in for almost five days. I just didn't feel well enough. Tomorrow, though, I return to work, which should get me back in the routine.

Routine. While at my "Mom's," I told her very briefly and superficially (because that's as much as I understand my current state of mind) how I've been feeling. She seemed to just 'know' what was going on. "You're in a rut," she said matter of factly. "You're spinning your wheels. Your job is boring you, you're disillusioned with your other work. Your stagnating." The way my body reacted to her words told me she was, of course, right. My other hint is the way I'm feeling about my impending departure for Australia. I cannot wait to get out of here. I need so desperately to get away from this place and all that is familiar and comfortable. I feel I am slowly dying here. It's not a painful death. Quite the contrary. I'm quite numb. I am measuring out my days in coffee spoons. One, another.

I'm not the kind of person that requires excitement, but I do require challenge. My mind feels as though it's turning to mush. My job has become mind numbingly familiar and recent events have shattered my rose coloured glasses. I have finally realized -- as I alluded to in my last post -- that I am not special enough to shatter the glass ceiling that exists between me and advancement in the organization for which I work. I've peaked. I'm 43! My question to the Universe is: what now? I make a wonderful salary with wonderful benefits. Listen to me. I've become chained to salary and benefits. Those are the words of someone who is faithless and ungrateful. When has the Universe failed to provide for me? Never.

So, I know that something will happen, because something always does. Interestingly, I feel strongly that I'm on the precipice of a new relationship. I don't know why. I've not met anyone, but I feel in my bones that by spring -- April or May-- by life will be different in that regard. I'll let you know if my hunch turns out to be right, or whether I've fallen victim to wishful thinking.

In the meantime, 2008 is upon us. I wish for you..and for me...all things good and true. I wish for the balance of learning from the past, living in the moment and hoping for the future.

I'll talk you next from Down Under.

Snow in December

2007-12-12T22:09:00.000-07:00

Well, winter has finally taken hold. In the last three or so weeks, we've had the snow we should have had a month ago, plus this month's allotment. I suppose it makes Christmas more Christmassy.

I leave for Australia on the 30th. I can't believe the trip is upon me already. Time moves so much more quickly as one ages. My visit with my sister will be there and gone in an instant.

I had a revelation today. I realized that I am not special. I don't mean that to sound like a bad thing. I have been labouring (and I do mean that) under the illusion that if the big wigs at work just realized how smart, clever, invaluable and insightful (read: special) I am, they would reward me with status. A job that lets me use all those of those skills. I had a telephone meeting this morning with a fellow I do freelance work for. He said something made my brain go 'clang.' He said, "You can't tie yourself to an organization. Your skills go beyond that. You can be loyal to an organization, but individuals mean nothing to the corporate body. They will not be loyal to you." It was the proverbial 'a-ha' moment. I have come to love and be attached to the place that I work, but I have at last realized that this is an unrequited love. They're using me. Oh, don't get me wrong...they pay me well and give me good benefits and treat me well...but if I disappeared tomorrow it would be of no consequence to them. They're using me until I'm done with them or they're done with me. I once thought I'd retire at this company. I now see that is impossible and, unless things change dramatically, soul killing. So, it begs the question: what do I want to do with the rest of my life?

I have never planned my career. Not for a moment. I have simply floated in the water, letting the tide take me where it pleases. It's worked out pretty well. Over the last 4 years, I have let myself become anchored. The company has become the parent I want to please, the parent I wish would recognize me for the special child I am. Ain't gonna happen. And so, the challenge is not to find yet another surrogate parent (and therefore chase the same dream), but to leave home...leave what is safe and known. It's time to grow up and stop seeking that which can never be found. Instead of looking for someone to confirm my specialness, instead of looking outward, it's time look inward. It's time for knowing, not for asking.

Here's what I know. I'm smart, clever, shrewd. I understand what motivates people personally, professionally, politically. I can figure out the strategy and plans of others. I can formulate my own, and they pretty much always work. I always know what to do. I can write what needs to be said and make you feel good about reading it. I'm the kind of advisor business people wish for.

And, no, I wasn't asking.

Hard Knocks

2007-11-24T17:46:00.001-07:00

I believe the one of the most dangerous things a person can become is complacent. It is possible to feel too safe, too sure, too secure. When that happens, the Universe invariably gives you a good swift kick. And, believe me, it hurts. A lot. What's worse is that those feelings of safety, sureness and security are like a rain puddle....shallow and easily evaporated. They're just gone and you are once again shivering in the cold of the world, naked and afraid. Getting that sense of safety back is a long, slow road. But, really, the question is: can you ever really get back there at all?

Quaecumque Vera

2007-11-22T20:11:00.000-07:00

Quaecumque Vera. Whatsoever things are true. The motto of the University of Alberta, my beloved alma mater.

Today, as a member of the University of Alberta Senate, I had the honour and privilege of being part of the platform procession for Convocation. What an incredible feeling to come into the Auditorium to Pomp and Circumstance as part of a centuries old tradition. To come in as an established member of the academic community to welcome its newest members. I have come full circle.

The most remarkable moment was when we stepped on to the stage and turned to face the audience. In front of us was a sea of caps and hoods (the hood is draped over the shoulders; the colour of the satin identifies what department you belong to). I sat out there once. Now I was on the stage with the Chancellor, the University President, the Chair of the Board of Governors, my fellow Senators, Honorary Doctorate recipients and esteemed members of the University's faculty. It filled me with incredible joy.

In some part, I felt so grateful to have my graduate work so far behind me. It's been 15 years since I got my Master's degree. 15 years!! Even so, I remember the pain of it. The burden of it. The sinking feeling that I'd never get it done. The increasing resentment I felt towards my advisor, whose instructions and feedback required a cryptographer to decipher. The knowledge that my thesis was not nearly my best piece of work, but merely the only piece of work I was capable of producing at the time. I'd written far better papers as an undergraduate. Far better. Still it was done and I'd fulfilled the requirements. I was 28 when I got my M.A. 28. At the time, I thought I was a slacker. I should have been done when I was 26. I could have been. Easily. Apparently not so easily. Now, at 43, I realize how young I was to have a graduate degree.

It has made all the difference. People have asked me what on earth a person can do with a Master's degree in English. My answer: anything. It has opened doors. It trained me to be a respected and sought after writer. It taught me to think and to question, to wonder and to dream. And, perhaps most importantly, it has helped me impress women.

Most of all, though, my time at the University left me with one purpose in my life: to seek out, to the best of my ability, whatsoever things are true.

Congratulations to the University of Alberta's Class of 2007.

Tassimo

2007-11-20T07:02:00.000-07:00

In an earlier post, I mentioned going out into the world to buy unnecessary plastic objects, thereby doing my part to contribute both to global warming and mindless, rampant consumerism. Okay. I'm a bad person. Let's move on. On Sunday, I bought a Tassimo beverage machine. It makes single serving beverages using these little 'pucks' that are placed into the machine, which then sends hot water through the pucks (which contain espresso, hot chocolate, or tea, etc) into an awaiting mug. I specifically got the machine in order to make lattes. I considered getting a 'real' espresso machine, but didn't see myself going to all the fuss. But, like my Roomba robot vacuum (yes, I have one of those, too), the Tassimo was a pleasant surprise. The lattes are yummy! Check it out: www. tassimo.com. Oh, and if you're wondering about the Roomba....it is remarkable and even a little loveable.

And the wind blows

2007-11-18T18:24:00.001-07:00

I'm very grateful to have got in my run yesterday because there is a miserable, cold, north wind blowing today. When I woke up, I felt determined to do as little as possible today. For the first two or so hours, I managed nicely. Then I got bored...and felt a little guilty (I hope you're beginning to see a recurring theme in my posts). So, I had a bath, got dressed and headed out to do a few errands.

Tuesday is my dear friend Jane's 53rd birthday, so I picked up some things for her in honour of the occasion. What do you give the person who has literally saved your life. A gift card. Just in case you ever need to know.

I am making a lamb roast tonight for dinner. The taste of lamb makes me happy. The thought of lamb makes me sad. I'm such a hypocrite.

Speaking of lambs, I read that Japan is going to resume hunting humpback whales. There will be a special place in hell set aside for modern day whale hunters. I can, in a way, forgive the pre-nineteenth century whale hunt. People were stupid. They believed that there was an endless supply of everything and capitalism was heroin. Moreover, the whales were used for things that could not be produced in other ways...or at least...no one knew how yet. Today, it is slaughter for slaughter's sake. So, please, give money to Greenpeace, which is working to block the whale hunt. You can find the donation site here: https://secure.greenpeace.org/visitor/index.php?event_id=main.

Another Saturday Night...

2007-11-17T20:23:00.000-07:00

I often sleep in on Saturdays. Sometimes until 11:00. Then I slog around for an hour or so. Read the paper. Start the crossword. Sometimes I go back to bed for a while. Sometimes I can sleep; guilt and anxiety usually keep me awake. So, I get up, shower, get dressed and go out into the world. By this time, it can be well into mid-afternoon. And, again, I feel guilty having, believing that I've wasted the day. Though, really, heading out in my climate altering SUV to buy stuff I don't need should be what makes me feel guilty and anxious.

Today, however, I got up at 8:30 to go walking with my friend Anne. She recently quit a job that was consuming her Saturdays. So it was the first time in a long while that we had our Saturday morning walk. It was mild for mid-November in Alberta. We solved each other's problems, then went for lunch. Following lunch, I went to that crack house known as Costco and purchased many unnecessary and unwise things. After that, I went to Starbucks (another crack house) to get my usual: a venti non-fat, sugar free caramel latte. Anne and I affectionately refer to this beverage as a "caramel why bother." I then took some time to map out a few running routes. One short one...only 3kms, and a long one: 8kms.

When I got home, I realized I was eager to 'try out' my new 8km route. So, off I went....without my dogs, who I'd walked with Anne in the morning. Running with my dogs is often a trial. They poop constantly, interrupting my pace. They sometimes become aggressive and pull when they come upon other dogs. So, to go without them (and be guilt-free about it) was a real treat. I felt a bit intimidated by the distance in front of me. Even though the route was only 1 km longer than my previous longest distance, there was a long uphill section. Not significant, but noticeable. I have to run quite slow on long runs in order to be able to finish (I truly believe that anyone walking briskly would certainly keep up with me, or pass me!), so this hill would test me.

I found it hard to find the right pace for the first third of the run. Sometimes it's difficult to slip into a comfortable slow gear. Usually, my body just sets the pace it wants to run at for the day, and I usually judge my distance accordingly. If I pop out of the gates like a Lab puppy, then I run a shorter distance because I still do not have the stamina to keep that pace up over more than 3kms or so.

As I ran downhill toward the turnaround point, I felt that I'd finally clicked into a groove. I was just the right temperature too. I turned at the entrance to Rundle Park and headed back 'up' to Ada Boulevard. Surprisingly, I didn't feel the incline nearly as much as I thought, but did hear the effort in my breathing. When I reached the zenith, my body moved into the most comfortable rhythm I've ever felt at this point in a run. It was effortless. All I could hear was the sound of my jacket as my arms moved. I could have run like this for miles. The last half mile or so was tough. My pace tends to quicken significantly when I am aware I'm in the home stretch. I was just running too fast and didn't have enough in me. But I finished. 8 kilometres! Or roughly 5 miles. This represents the farthest I have ever run. My next long run will take me out toward the outer edges of the planet. Wonder what's out there?

When I got home, I had to quickly get organized to go to Pat and Sal's. It has been so long since I've spent time with them and I've been chiding myself for my neglect. I got the dogs all bundled up along with everything I was hauling over to their place. Going to their house also means changing into clothes I intend to put in the laundry as soon as I get home. They smoke non-stop. They are both very ill with chronic obstructive lung disease. Sal also has emphysema and is on oxygen...when she's not smoking. It is hard to tell which of them is more ill. Pat coughs almost non-stop now.

They just had new, beautiful, expensive furniture delivered. It is magnificent and essentially ruined already. Since its arrival yesterday, the furniture has been smoked on and around continuously. So, I'm sure the furniture store would never consider taking it back if something were wrong with it.

Pat was in poor health tonight. I have watched the steady decline of this powerful, active, vital woman for almost 20 years. Visits to their house used to be full of laughter, cards and non-stop talking. Now both Pat and Sal are seriously out of breath after the slightest amount of activity, such as picking up one of their dogs, walking across the room or placing a bag of garbage outside. I did a few chores for them while I was there. Pat faded considerably during the three hours I was there. It is not at all like her to leave company, but she was too sick to sit up and chat. So, our visit was brief and, for me, a little sad. I accept the choices they make and love them regardless. It is just so hard to see them dying slowly before my eyes.

I was home again and in front of my computer by 8:30 p.m. 12 hours after my day began. And I realized that no matter how much or how little you pack into a day, they are all the same length. And, no matter how much or how little you pack into a day, eventually it's time to go to bed and start another one.

An embarrassment to bloggers everywhere

2007-11-12T21:29:00.000-07:00

I know. It's been ages since I posted. I'm one of those people who's contributing to flotsam on the Internet. I look back at my previous posts and I realize how bloody dull I am. Did I actually post about cookies??

I've been inspired by a couple of bloggers, however. My friend Jade has a great blog at chinamusing.blogspot.com. Also, check out the open book that is comfortingwords.blogspot.com. Both of these are blogs done right.

I had an interesting weekend. I actually went on a blind date. My motto is that I can keep on complaining about being single and receive the sympathy from friends as long as I go out and try every now and then. It turned out to be a very pleasant evening with a smart, funny (that includes laughing at my jokes) person. It was refreshing not to be quietly horrified, waiting for the rescue call from my friend Anne.

It was Remembrance Day on Sunday. I feel Remembrance Day deeply as it reminds me of my dear father and lovely, late Uncle Ted, who spent time in a Polish prison camp in the Second World War. Like many ex-POWs, he didn't speak of his experiences much. In fact, the only story I remember him telling me was about turnips. All the Germans gave him to eat were raw turnips. He lived on them for two years. After he returned home, he couldn't bring himself to even look at a turnip. In fact, I don't think he ate a turnip again for the rest of his life. My Uncle, like my father, was very swarthy. The Germans called him "Schwartzie," which essentially means "Blackie." Schwartz is German for black. Interestingly, though my Uncle could never again eat turnips, he ended up naming a beloved Dachshund "Schwartzie."

My Uncle grew into a terrible xenophobe and racist. I gave him a lot of rope on that account, partly because of his generation and because of his experience as a POW. Ironically, he and my Aunt Mary travelled extensively in their retirement. And no matter what country they were in, my Uncle was always disgusted when people did not speak English. He told a story about being on a tour bus and the person in the seat next to him was speaking Japanese or German (I can't remember which). At any rate, appalled, my Uncle got up and moved. He also hated Americans with an irrational vehemence. My Aunt and Uncle holidayed frequently in the US. They never seemed to make the connection between the country they were visiting and the people that lived there. They should be able to visit and not be made to feel uncomfortable by people speaking their native tongue, eating un-Canadian things or smelling unfamiliar. I never understood why they travelled at all.

Still, I loved my Aunt and Uncle because they were kind beyond measure. We are all more than our worst traits. And, on Remembrance Day, I remember that my Uncle lied about his age so he could enlist and serve his country. He went for the noblest of reasons; he paid a high price. He would have done it again in a heartbeat. He loved being a Canadian. He loved the flag and the national anthem. He was the best patriot he knew how to be. And, I suppose, he enlisted and fought for the freedom to be a racist and a xenophobe. Thank you, Uncle Ted. I will never forget.

Ghost Rider Smells

2007-08-04T22:26:00.000-06:00

Rented Ghost Rider tonight. Thought it would at least be mindless entertainment. It got the mindless part right. Too awful to sit through. I might as well have taken my $5 and set it on fire (pun intended).

Ever have one of those days that's just perfect. A rainy day here in beautiful downtown Edmonton. We've had weeks of miserable, dry, hot weather. Today was a godsend. Hung out with the dogs. Read. Did laundry. No phone calls. It was a great day. Even stinky Ghost Rider couldn't ruin it.

Tomorrow is supposed to be cold and rainy as well. The plan is to paint. A picture. That's the plan.

You'll thank me for this

2007-08-03T13:57:00.000-06:00

Run, do not walk, and buy President's Choice brand Caramel Cheesecake Crunch cookies. Life altering.

Evening....folks

2007-08-02T22:44:00.000-06:00

Saw the movie "Evening" tonight with my dear friend Fern. "Evening" reminded me of "Wit" in that it is about someone at the end of their life and having regrets. Whereas "Wit" is about a person realizing what they did not do, "Evening" is about a person who fears her life was predicated on a mistake made in her youth. She realizes ultimately that there are no mistakes.

"Evening" features a stellar cast: Vanessa Redgrace, Glenn Close, Meryl Street (both in small roles), Mamie Gummer (Meryl Streep's daughter), Toni Collette and Natasha Richardson (Vanessa Redgrave's daughter). Talent of this calibre could elevate a shopping list to poetry. I suspect the script is actually quite average -- though in many ways the key messages of the film should be a manual for life given to every young woman when she reaches the age of majority.

A bridge in Mississippi

2007-08-01T20:02:00.000-06:00

collapsed during rush hour traffic, plunging at least 50 cars into the Mississippi River. Apparently, a school bus is hanging on by a thread. According to news reports, the bridge was under construction. Perhaps city officials should have waited until the bridge was finished before opening it to traffic. Just a thought.

Can you imagine...just a poor schlub on his way home from work when the bridge beneath him disappears and *ker splash*. Then the agonizing wait for the pressure to equalize in the car, which means staying calm until water fills the inside of the car. Then having the presence of mind to open the door and swim to the surface. It's one of those disasters that's all about a few people's numbers being absolutely up. Tickets, please.

A bike ride

2007-08-01T19:57:00.000-06:00

I went for a bike ride tonight for the first time in I don't know how many years. It was just like...well,...riding a bike. It was a beautiful evening and it was great to get out and feel the wind in my face. It will, however, take the rest of the evening to pry the bike seat out of my ass.

New on The View

2007-08-01T11:41:00.000-06:00

So, Whoopie Goldberg has been tapped to replace Rosie O'Donnell as moderator on the view. It's a smart choice for lots of reasons....particularly because it brings some racial diversity to a show that has been very "white." Elizabeth gives me a pain in the crease. I find it so alarming to see someone so young buy the Bush agenda hook, line and sinker. It's as though she has no ability or desire to question, to look beyond the public relations. In short, I think she's a Republican Stepford wife.

It will be interesting to see if parameters are put around Whoopi, who I suspect has the potential to be as opinionated as Rosie. I suspect, however, that she can also separate her opinion from her person. This was Rosie's downfall. She felt it all too much.

Rosie has an incredible blog, which is like crack cocaine. She responds to questions from her blog community. Apparently she gets in excess of 3000 comments and questions a day, ranging from vitriolic abuse to over the top love and affection. The questions range from banal to hilarious. It's good reading and she's pretty up front about controversies related to her. Have a look.

I stopped taping The View when Rosie left. I may start again now that Whoopie's on.

Let the blogging begin

2007-08-01T11:21:00.000-06:00

I bought the movie "Wit," and HBO movie starring Emma Thompson. It was adapted by a Pulitzer Prize winning play and has that feel about it. Emma Thomspon and Mike Nichols wrote the screenplay. It is the story of a professor of 17th century English poetry (John Donne, specifically) who is diagnosed with "stage 4 metastatic ovarian cancer." "There is no stage 5," the character (Vivian Bearing) tells the audience directly. It's a movie about many things, not the least of which is about how the medical profession treats patients, about the ripping away of dignity. It's also about fear, having regrets, about the illusion that we are in control of our lives.

Emma Thompson won an Emmy for this role, I believe. I find her acting sublime and she is no less so in this. Also, the actor who plays her former English professor is a revelation as well.

I had to order my copy through http://www.amazon.ca/. Not sure if it's readily available to rent.